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[daeilmi]

HEADCANONS: PART I

prompts are taken from these, as published by niskrp.

001. what’s the favourite country you have ever visited? Why? / @nssungjoo & @nsyongjin

santorini, greece. he can’t really pinpoint why. there’s just something about the ambiance, the atmosphere, something about the history and the landscape and the architecture and the people. it’s beautiful, in a haunting sort of way. he wouldn’t mind living there, assuming he ever gets to retirement age.

002. how do you dress outside work? what’s your preferred attire? / @nsjisoo

streetwear, mostly. ripped jeans, oversized muscle tees and t-shirts, kimono jackets; bold, solid colors paired with neutrals, with blacks and whites and varying shades of gray. usually doesn’t style his hair when not dressing for work, just lets it fall however it wants. if he’s really trying to flex he’ll pair his outfit with some tinted shades but he doesn’t really wear accessories apart from the ones he usually does, like his citizen eco-drive or his cartier bracelet. wears mostly the same jewelry in his ears as he does to work, apart from the lobes; just simple gold barbells and studs.

003. what’s your greatest fear? / @nsjisoo

as unbothered and nonchalant as he can come across, he tends to hold himself personally accountable for the safety of the people around him, for the safety of the people he works with, especially following the tragic loss of agent kang jiwoo in 2018. over the months, that sense of duty has swelled into an almost… obsession, of sorts?

he can’t have another man’s blood on his hands. he can’t. he won’t.

004. how often do you get sick? how do you feel about doctors? / @nssungjoo

at this point in time, fairly often. after recent events he’s grown even more obsessed with his work; he treats his body like shit, he’s always working, rarely sleeps, barely eats. throbbing headaches and high fevers are common, he never bothers seeing a doctor for it, considers it a waste of time. chooses to self-medicate with tylenol or advil or aspirin instead.

005. what’s the hardest part about being a nis agent? / @nsjisoo & @nssungjoo

looking into a mirror and not recognizing the man staring back at you.

006. do you have any scars? how did you get them? / @nsjisoo & @nssungjoo

horizontal scar down the side of his neck, barely visible now; a souvenir from his time in rehab. Still has two holes, also barely visible, just beneath his bottom lip from the spider bite piercing he got when he was 19.

007. what are your sleeping habits? how many hours of sleep do you get in a day? / @nssungjoo

two hours, three if he’s lucky, and then he’ll maybe take brief 20-minute naps throughout the day. the nightmares won’t let him sleep. his bed of choice is either the chair he sits in inside his self-proclaimed ‘office’ (explained further down this list), or one of the many rooms that make up the nis dormitories. he rarely goes home these days, other than to grab a change of clothes and say hi to his dog, always has a duffel bag full of the essentials tossed in some random corner of his workspace. unhealthy? you bet. is he gonna stop? probably not.

008. what is your favourite place at the hq? where do you spend your time off work? / @nsjisoo

the conference rooms; specifically, the conference room he hogs throughout the year. at this point, whenever someone says ‘daeil’s office’, everyone who’s been around for more than three months realizes that they don’t mean daeil’s actual assigned office, they mean conference room 02, the black hole 40% of hq’s stationary is sucked into. the place itself looks like the aftermath of a hurricane; article clippings taped to the wall, surveillance photos thumb tacked to the fucking ceiling—(i’m not even exaggerating; he has a habit of laying back in his chair with his feet propped up on the conference table when he’s thinking. daeil vc ‘might as well eh’). red string everywhere, connecting everything. documents lying haphazard on the floor, whiteboards scrawled across in blue and black and green, blueprints and maps strewn across the table, points of interest circled in red. his suit jacket’s probably draped across the couch somewhere at the back of the room. the trash bin is overflowing with shredded paper and there’s empty coffee cups littering every visible surface. there’s probably an empty coffee cup on the fucking floor too.

when he’s not working in this active war zone, he’s sleeping in it. laying back in his chair, feet kicked up on the table, arms crossed in front of him, an open book covering his face.

009. how do you spend your free time? do you have any hobbies? / @nsjisoo

he’s been an avid rock-climbing enthusiast ever since he was young, back when he was living with his grandparents in jeju. there’s not much rock climbing to do in urban seoul, but he does have a premium membership at an obscure little mom and pop gym—conveniently located halfway between his workplace and home—where he goes bouldering. other than that, he likes to take the bus down to gimpo fishing park on the 2.5 days out the work year that he’s (forced) to take off. as a kid, he hated fishing, complained throughout every trip with his grandfather. he hasn’t minded it as much, ever since his his grandfather’s death; maybe even enjoys it, to a certain degree. it makes him feel a certain sense of… peace. like he’s closer to his gramps again.

010. are you comfortable with talking about your past? / @nsjisoo

to a certain extent; depends on the topic in question, really. he speaks fondly and proudly of his childhood, of the people who raised him, especially when it comes to his grandfather and the kind of man he was. ‘he’s his grandfather’s boy through and through’, his grandmother would say, and anyone who ever knew nam seokwoo would probably agree.

he has his grandfather’s eyes, after all. carries himself just like his grandfather did, too.

things get more complicated in regards to his parents. he doesn’t hate them in any capacity, and he’s certainly not bitter about the fact that were largely absent throughout the course of his life. he just kind of… accepts it for what it is. that said, he’s probably not going to talk shit about his parents to passing strangers, for filial piety sake if nothing else. he’s just not gonna air out his family’s dirty laundry in public.

last of all, daeil refuses to discuss or delve into the subject of the failed 2018 mission that resulted in the death of undercover agent kang jiwoo. oversight and strategy development for the mission was assigned to him at the time. he was assigned regular mandatory counselling sessions with dr. jung minjae following the tragedy. According to dr. jung’s reports, no progress has been made.